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Deep Inside My Heart <3>
How old are you? What do you envision yourself doing in the next 5 years? What do you wish to do, but have not taken the first step to do it?
"I am currently 16 going to 17 this year,this coming september. To what i envision myself doing in the next 5 years to come is becoming a camp instructor.You must be asking why camp instructor,right??This is something that i really wish to do as it has been my passion and ambition ever since i started to join NPCC during my secondary school days. I've fallen in love with outdoor very much and i wish to pursue what i really love and enjoy most as a career.
I found who i really am deep inside when i'm outdoors and of course doing outdoor activities.Also,i enjoy camps very much and that is how i found who i really am.I am a person who enjoys being lively,loud and happy!When undergoing camps,i feel that i am free to do whatever i wanna do.There is no restriction.I can be whoever i wanna be.I dont have to care what others want to say about me.Basically,i can be free!i hope you undertsand what i mean yeah.=)
When outdoors,i get to be close to nature and each time i'm outdoors,i feel calm,i find peace and i feel GREAT,FABULOUS and more,which i just cant describe.I learn a lot of things when outdoors.I get to experience new things and the best thing is,i get to travel.I wont be staying at the same stage and place all the time.I get to explore and meet new things,new people and so on.It is just something which is very beautiful in my eyes.
There are many things that i've wished i could have done just to realise this dream of mine.Sometimes i regret not grabbing the opportunity that have come by me,due to some circumstances which cannot be prevented. I also regreted not working hard enough for my maths during my O level examinations because that was the cause of me not getting to choose outdoor and adventure learning as a choice of my course in polytechnic.Though i got a pretty good aggregate(below 20 above 15),it doesnt help at all and because of failing my maths, i have to retake it all over again.I thought,by enrolling myself into that course, it could be one platform for me to pursue my dreams.
After that opportunity cannot be taken, i decided to actually join the activities organised by trekking and camping IG,so that at least, i can still continue pursuing my dreams.It was enlightening for me at first but after checking out the schedule,my hope got dashed and shattered again.Their activities clashes with the day i'm having my maths O level night class.
Now,i'm really confused and my mind is all blank.I dont know how to get on with pursuing and realising my dreams and passion.I'm still thinking and will always continue to think until i achieve what i have been longing for all this while.How i wish time would pass fast because for me to enroll myself to a camping agency,i must be 18 years old and above.So, i really hope and pray hard that once i reach the age 18,a camping agency will accept me and allow me to pursue my dreams.Thus,that is why camp instructor is what i envision myself doing in 5 years time =)"
after writing a reflection journal given my my communication facilitator,i guess this is what i really feel deep inside,Thanx faci for giving me this question and allowing me to do some reflection about this...my ambition,my passion and my wish....thank you.... |