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so sleep alone tonight
n isnani ms .loves Allah . fond of Yellow & Purple. needs Fityan Assyakirin. Family,Friends,Educators,Love - My Heartbeat. |
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today was a freaking bad day. it wasnt successful to make me a happy girl. i just didnt feel like "nur isnani mohd shariff". my self-esteem was damn low + tired till i feel like i wanna drop dead. it wasnt like me. i felt lethargic and every single thing crossing my path was effing disturbing! couldnt hide from getting frustrated. started of the day with the bus arriving at my bus stop 1/2 ++ late! and..as a result of that, i almost arrive school late too!luckily i still have 10 minutes more before the clock struck 9. pheww. thank god, the test was managable. really hope that i could get a B at least. amin! get on with the normal stuff after that. aini didnt came for class today cos she was having sore eyes. GET WELL SOON yaw babe! class was boring without her. plus aina who also left me cos she was feeling unwell, class was 'dead' to me. was preoccupied with stuff to do the whole day. the problem was on experiment. from the name itself it doesnt seems 'chim'. however, to find research on it, it was another way round. had a hard time finding resources. aini was there for me. (yeehaa! :) ) helped with finding resources and understanding certain things about experimenting. at least, it have helped me in explaining my slide which i thought is a logical thinking from "stat stay", i think. it was a blog by the way. thank YOU for the resource. you saved me. hah! (: end school around 4.30 and as usual, today it was raining too. except that, it was raining heavily. only god know what i felt at that point of time. i felt lonely. exceptionally lonely. never felt like this before. it was as if i was the one and only human being on earth. felt like breaking down. i want to run away from anything and everything. everything that i'm undergoing this few days doesnt seems right. i dont want to undergo this alone. the feeling was all mixed up. i felt that i need someone special. but will the right man come? while walking alone, pathetically drenched without anyone to talk to or seek shelter, i came across a few couples. yeah, i felt jealous. when can i ever be like them? maybe i have to wait forever. i'm tired of just being friends. i'll be the most happiest girl on earth if god could grant my wish of experiencing, indulging myself in love, with the one and only. i dont want to ask for something big, even if it can only be one day. just one day. i would say, "thank you" :)) oh. whatever it is, i've changed my blogskin. and if you feel like dropping me a message or comment, you are welcome to do so, at the left side of the page. just click on "this time" from the phrase "what i've been looking for all this time". you could press any of the words which forms the phrase to gain access to my profile and links. i've added 2 more new links there. which is the-familyaffair @blogspot, which is created to update about the upcoming events that my family would be up to. and also grantmeasmile @multiply, to update all the pics that i have in my collection. err, those two website wont be updated frequently now, because i'm not in the right state of mind to do so. i hope you guys understand yaw. my rants could get more and more emotional in days to come. warning: it will only gets normal when i'm 'well' all over again. forgive me. "in a person's life, there's always ups and downs" lots of love, isnani
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