ya ampun! baunya kuat banget si. its only 9.54am and my stomach have started to growl. laper. there's still hours to go before i could start munching. my body feels cold when nothing goes into the stomach. hmm, insyallah, everything would be fine (:

if you ask me how things are going on in my life right now, i would say it's not alright. one thing, i thank god would be, because the holidays are coming the day after tomorrow, and that means, i could free myself from all problem. moreover, i got no mood to sit down and do stuff anymore. yes, i know, hate words are the ultimate thing to bring me down. you're very clever indeed to have spot that weakness of mine. i dont know what is your problem with me, and i dont know why you have to blame me for everything that is happening. just so you know, i never had a problem with you. and please, dont be a hypocrite. that doesnt help.

just buzz off if you really dont like me. show it. i dont mind. at least i know that you hate me very much and i can stay away from you without any problems. i dont like to feel uneasy. thank you for hating me. at least i could reflect on myself. i know that i just have to bear with this. but how long more? i dont want to hate you. do me a favour, never come near me or talk to me anymore. i know what you're trying to do. just go far away from me.

Thank You!

yup, that's how difficult life is right now. oh, i know, it is just some test from HIM. i just hope that HE could give me the strength to get on with this, insyallah!