at last those tears fall. i've been waiting for it. i know i can never handle it any longer. but then, to think again, "HE would never give hefty test if i could never be able to handle it". i thank YOU for making those tears fall. those are all i need to get on.

yes, i did some reflections and i couldnt help asking why, blaming here and there, but what was mine? i know this shouldnt have happen because fingers are not being pointed to me, 1st. i hope that i've not missed out any points on me before i point the fingers straight to others. afterall, i am a normal human being if you remember. but, i know something can be done to make myself different. if that special someone could, its not impossible for me to do so too. but am i really ready for that?

"hidup tenang tanpa bicara. tiada perlu kocar kacir yg tiada bererti buat mengharungi dugaan hidup. roti, garam dan air yg perlu, untuk menjalani hidup, tiada persoalan keluarga, kawan, tuan, puan, makcik, pakcik. alangkah baik jika hidupku juga semudah itu. tapi adakah aku bersedia buat semua itu? jahil terasa diri ini. dan aku buntu waktu. janganlah engkau menutup pintu hatiku. kuat kan lah imanku. insyallah, satu hari nanti"