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so sleep alone tonight
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i stumbled upon one super duper scary dream in which if fate doesnt bring me to that state, i dont want to undergo that situation. i know, at that point of time, my heart says,that's not the right thing to do. it puzzles me why the people around me was calm, could accept what was happening. i wasnt one bit ready. i take a look at myself, it was too rushy and i havent even prepare myself. this, was the scariest dream ever. damn me for reading novels on love and marriage. haiyaa, if i dont read the novel, i wont stumble upon that dream. tsk. sudden chill have been with me eversince. my legs and hands are shaking. and i'm not too sure why. 19, yes, 19 was the age that i got married in that dream. no no. i'm too young for that. it happened in split seconds. i started to reflect after that dream. what will i do if that really happen? how would it turn out? what kind of wife would i be? what if its not successful? such a coincident. every site i dropped by today seems to have a huge relation with wedding, couples and family. if in the past, when i look at wedding pictures, i ask myself, how they manage to make themselve overcome nervousness, etc, when they come to that stage; with a casual feeling. but today, it was unbelievable. i asked the same question with another feeling, like as if i was in their shoes, heart thumping non stop and... argh, i dont know how to descibe the feeling. no no. i'm not ready for all this. not at this age of mine. its not a matter of things that i've yet to accomplish but its more on the responsiblity that i have to take with me. i cannot imagine how things will be like. yes, there's a lot to look forward for in a marriage, like the "pahala" that a married couple could earn for themselves. allow me elaborate more. ini khusus buat kaum wanita (: "... umumnya bagi kaum wanita, pintu syurga lebih banyak bermula dan berada di sekitar rumahtangga, suami dan anak-anak.
Amat mudah bagi kaum wanita untuk mendapat maqam solehah dan menjadi ahli syurga di akhirat.
Ini berdasarkan sabda Rasulullah: "Sekiranya seorang wanita dapat melakukan empat perkara iaitu sembahyang lima waktu, puasa di bulan Ramadhan, menjaga maruah dan taat kepada suami maka masuklah syurga mana-mana yang ia kehendaki."
Sekiranya seorang wanita itu tidak berkahwin, ia tidak akan dapat mencapai kesempurnaan pada maqam yang keempat. Walau sehebat mana sekalipun ia bersembahyang, berpuasa dan menjaga maruah, wanita yang tidak berkahwin tidak akan mendapat kelebihan pada mentaati suami. Sedangkan kelebihan mentaati suami mengatasi segala-galanya bagi seorang wanita, sehinggakan redha Allah pun bergantung kepada redha suami.
Selain daripada itu di antara kelebihan wanita yang berkahwin bahawa ia akan diberi pahala seperti pahala jihad fisabilillah (berjuang di jalan Allah) di kala mengandung. Apabila ia menyusukan anak maka setiap titik air susu akan diberi satu kebajikan. Berjaga malam kerana mengurus anak akan diberi pahala seperti membebaskan 70 orang hamba. Wanita yang berpeluh kerana terkena bahang api ketika memasak untuk keluarganya akan dibebaskan daripada neraka. Bagi wanita yang mencuci pakaian suaminya akan diberi 1000 pahala dan diampuni 2000 dosa. Lebih istimewa lagi ialah bagi wanita yang tinggal di rumah kerana mengurus hal-hal berkaitan anak-anak akan dapat tinggal bersama-sama Rasulullah saw di syurga kelak. Bahkan wanita yang rela dijimak oleh suami juga akan mendapat pahala dan lebih hebat lagi bagi wanita yang mati kerana bersalin akan mendapat pahala seperti pahala syahid..."
masya'allah. it's great aint it? (: dont get me wrong. its not that i dont want to get married, but its just the matter of age. in my opinion, below 22 years of age is definitely too young for me to get married. i dont think i'm mature enough and that i have a good rational thinking that is needed in marriage. you know, whatever things that i have in mind is just difficult to be conveyed in words. lets make it simple and let one word explain things. 's-c-a-r-e-d'. that should be the word that can conclude it all. hmm...positive, positive. insyallah. after all that i've said, those things can just be my thoughts and thinking. at the end of the day, Allah's fate is the thing that is going to fix what my future would be in time to come. i'll accept whatever things that HE have set for me because i know, it's the best for me and HE wont give challenges that i cannot handle. HE'll give me the strength. insyallah. 'faith' ((: "aku hanyalah insan biasa. aku berserah kepadaMU, takdir hidupku. aku pasti ianya adalah yang terbaik buatku. Ya Allah, hanya engkau yang tahu apa yang ada di lubuk hatiku. permudahkan lah perjalananku. amin." |