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so sleep alone tonight
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well, i'm supposed to be doing my RJ, evaluation, quiz and whatever stuffs that has got relations with school. but nah, i'm not in the mood and i refuse to get all those things done ASAP. basically, there's some other things that's bothering me real hard now. i dont want to sound pathetic here, by ranting it all out. nothing personal but it has got something to do with affairs of the heart. i'm just going to jumble things up. you go figure out what it is about. but please, dont mess things up and insert something that is not right into your "memory". better still, dont even bother to care about whatever i'm writing.
i thought those changes that i've made to myself would do some good. giving away something that was precious could bring a smile. putting aside my feelings could bring happiness. little did i know, it was nothing of that sort. nothing i do could put me in that special place of yours. dont keep on denying it. think hard, and i'm sure you'll get what i mean. basically, you just gave yourself away and i could detect it. after what happened, i dont think you even realised that tears actually fell. what you said pierced through my heart. i've never felt that hurt eversince i know you. i never knew that i was a burden. you smacked my face real hard. just so you know, yes, you should be smiling now because it knocked some sense into me and i understand your que. fret not, i'll try my best to make sure that you will never experience that very difficult moment of your life anymore. if only you could understand better. if only you can put your feelings aside. if only i was at the special place in your heart. if only whatever i've done have actually erased those black marks and spots. i'm sure things wouldnt have turned out like this. i'm sure my eyes would still be blinded by lies. i'm sure our relationship would be better. i'm sure you would have appreciate everything better. i only pray for the best. i only pray that i can carry out that responsibility of mine in the future. i only pray that one day, you will realise who i truly am to you. i only pray that you would story tell me everything that you felt about me. i only pray that one day, the things that you would say, would only be the best. i think the best solution would be ______ with you. i think it will do good. hopefully, HE will make everything alright and assist in whatever that i'm going to do. hopefully, i could bring myself to do it. hopefully i could be disiplined enough. hopefully i would be invisible to you always. |