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so sleep alone tonight
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yesterday was one outing day with my close cousins, nameera, nadia and najib (: for the 1st time ever, i saw nameera with specs that day. oh my! i seriously feel that she looks so fragile. i thought she looks much happier without her specs on :( we was suppose to burn out all the "bunga api" on the 1st day of raya (nameera, nadia & me excitedly bought them with our green packets, just to play with other cousins.hehs) but unfortunately, we did not have the time to. only managed to burn it all yesterday at our uncle's open house. nah, the rest dont want to tag along. we had all of it to ourselves. i hope they've enjoyed though cos i was happy just to see them smile :D 
"that's my close cousins for you ((: " i'm filled with lots of "why" questions lately, which is another, i dont know "why" too. things just doesnt make sense to me. oh, i feel so useless. if there's anyone that i could blame, it should have been myself. afterall, it's me that i have to check on 1st, and there's only me in which i can change and make things better. however, what if the thing have happened and when it's hard to turn back time? i'm a noob on this and i can never look at it at any other angles. if there's any one thing that i would be afraid of, i should say that this is the thing i'm VERY afraid of. it's like a disaster of my life!
i'm very distubed by the things happening around me. and it is a chore when i get to detect every single actions/reactions. cos it makes me think think think and think and ask myself lots and lots and lots of questions, which needed answers answers answers and answers! sigh. it can never stop. this is the result of being over-sensitive. at times, it's not a bad factor and i choose for it to be with me forever. however, i just hope that this thing wont make me becomes paranoid and make matters worst, in which could cause havoc to my life. i guess, i just need to wait for things to get better by itself, insyallah. "unfortunately, i dream of you yesterday. i'm praying hard that it will never happen in reality cos i dont know how to face it. tinggalkan aku.take good care of yourself, C." |
