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the 3rd of january 2009 marks a few events in life. it was abi's birthday and i was not there to celebrate that most important day with him. he wasnt at home and things was kind of havoc. not gonna explain further. but i hope the cake that umi bought together with me and the wish from the three of us was enough to fulfill the responsibility that we have, as a wife and child. Happy Belated 50th Birthday, abi ((;
 it was also a day where one of my "dreams" to reach somewhere was fulfilled. Henderson Waves to be exact, with the beloved girlfriends (:got to watch the sunset and enjoy the view of HIS beautiful creations. i did got frustrated though, cause the camera was down and i didnt manage to capture those "special" moments. what a waste. the existence of handphone camera didnt help either. wasnt enough to reflect the best that i've seen with my eyes. oh wells, just not my luck. i'm gonna drop by again some other time, insya'allah. had our dinner and off to vivo's rooftop for truth or truth. yeah, it's not the traditional truth or dare game but the concept is equally the same. liyana's suggestion. kept insisting that it could enhance the bonding since that's what she experienced with her NAFA buddies. me being me, i disagree on playing that game. the only girl who disagrees on it. experience teach me a lot and thus the negative view on that game. it feels super good to hear what other's thought about things but it's suuppperr terifying when you have to say things that could hurt someone else's feelings. add telling your deepest secrets on to the suuuppperr terifying point. not easy i should say. you would say that i could fake/smoke through if i didnt want to tell them the truth but it's soo not me. i'm just not the type of person who knows how to lie. no matter how hard i try, in one way or another i would go back to that person and tell the truth. there's nothing i can hide. pfft. that's why the game is a NO NO for me.
despite that, i still played the game. afterall, they are my girlfriends. trust is all it spells to me after minutes of consolling myself that, it's gonna be alright. god knows how hard my heart was thumping while playing the game. if you were to ask me what i thought after playing that game with the girlfriends, hmm... not that i've not played the game before but the feeling is kind of different. i have to agree with liyana that this game, was beneficial. not only i got to know each of them better, i also got the listen to stories that, we might not wish to talk about when not desperate to (kalau tak kena paksa, in other words). some things are better left lying around without having to "take a second look" at it and let wounds bleed all over again. it's very hurtful.a very rare opportunity it is. you know, till now, i've not experience the one and only thing that they've experienced (secret!), and the things that they've shared might be essential in time to come (**coughs**). girls, "itulah sesuatu yang aku pelajari dari kamu bertiga". hee! (i forgot to put that into consideration when consolling myself. lucky i played the game. hohoho! :) )
though i had to tell them something that was considered as private and confidential, i thought that it was only right, that i share something major in my life, since they all did. fair and square. i hope there's something to learn from there. not something to be sad of. maybe it's only right that we do justice to the people we love and not just let them suffer for the rest of their life. we're not the one in their shoes and they have the right to choose. lets not be a barrier to the options that they want in life (:
girls...THANK YOU! i had a blast. and the truth or truth game have thought me to be calm and let things takes place on it's own. things may not be as bad as i think it might be afterall. i love you girls to bits :))) after the enjoyable day, i was "enlightened" by scratches on bro's back. very goood. guess "who" he got the scratches from? it was, "P_ N_ I _N_ K". can figure out? yeah. it's her. i guess it was still lingering around my house when the next morning i found this kind of huge blue black on my thigh. umi says, "she must have sucked your blood yesterday night without you realising. if it's not, then most probably the blue black might feel painful. but in your case, it's not". oh wells, i hope it's a lesson learnt to bro. it's not the 1st time, but this seems to be the worst because before this it was just big patches, like mosquito bites, all over his body. but this time, it was scratches. just like cat's claw scratching on your back. verry verrryy bad in terms of appearance. yes, eeerie. on a brighter note, weeehooo! i'm starting youth A.L.I.V.E this sunday. alhamdulillah (*grinning from ear to ear*) (((: let's wait and see what they have installed for us. i'm excited to start the learning. oh, so blessed. syukran. hoping that things will get better each day, insya'allah. and for the 1st time ever, i managed to complete one difficult task all by myself today. syukran syukran! what an achievement. thank you, Allah. it feels great. thank you :D i wish for more wonderful days to come, Amin....
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