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so sleep alone tonight
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woah.it's been awhile since i last blog, hor?
life's been extremely busy. i'm not sure if i even have time for all the "dates" i have with all my beloved friends. especially, girlfriends. oh..i apologise peeps if i cant make time for them. i have to prioritise what's really important as of now. this time's project is difficult yet interesting. i got excited looking at all the amazing and informative books while hunting for them yesterday. too good to be true. but they do exist! masya-Allah. unfortunately, they were not for loan :(( and yeah, the project is the thing that is taking my time right now. stressed at times, but as it gets better(when things gets into place and when you start progressing), it is enjoyable doing it. cant help it but to get all happy and satisfied. special thanks to atiqah, for making my day :D silence doesnt mean that nothing happened. much to my dismay, thousands of things happened. for all i know, it was too fast that i couldnt catch up. when a certain situation came to me abruptly, i was not able to think fast. i'm not strong enough to handle them. millions of times, i had to seek opinions. not being able to make decisions on my own. and afraid that things that i do would hurt others. i'm too mindful i guess, till i mess myself up. seeking opinions makes me feel safe but at the same time, "i hope i could turn back time" always occurs to me. i cant change the fact that i'm stubborn and love to stick to what i think is right even after seeking an opinion. and thus, it goes back to square one. pfft. thank Allah, i'm able to forget things once another overcomes me. so, it tends to pass by me without having me to worry or solve it. coolio? it drains all the energy i have, dear. the thinking process never stops. runs down my mood. the last thing i want to happen. eekks!(cos i tend to keep quiete most of the time) and for that, i'd rather be alone, wherever i go. no, loneliness doesnt kill. it's perfectly fine and the best time to reflect and stuffs. you know? i enjoy those times the most. gerek! :) alhamdulillah, things in the family have started to get into place. Abi secured himself a job, and today, was his 1st day at work. he seems to be enjoying it. what not, this time, he's doing something that he's very passionate about. when he got back home, he goes like, "I LOVE CHALLENGES!". heh. proud of him (: though there's still one more problem that is yet to be solved, alhamdulillah, WE are all making the effort to change it. i'm trying my best to be as patient as possible. trying my best to give in. insya-Allah, insya-Allah.
what more to talk about? i guess that is all for now. i've got to go. updates soon yeah. take care all :D
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