cos it feels as if the rain is going to pour heavily.
but where do i go now?
a smack on my face ; to just move on and stop depending on others.


A note to self:
you know you want this badly.
you know you wanna be a better person.
you know its best for yourself.
so, you got to move on.
no matter how painful it is to let go.
you cant just keep hanging on to the past.
"and i do this for you, Oh Allah. Guide me through this. I feel so weak. Grant me the strength. Help me control my "nafsu". Protect me from "syaitan". Stop me from falling into its "trap". i only have You to depend on, Oh Allah. Amin."


its painful for me too.