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so sleep alone tonight
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when the environment changes, something new; it produces insecurities.
when 1stly it started alright , a sudden change; it became something overwhelming. when your supposed forte is being questioned ; why must it even be mentioned? when you receive stares in which you dont understand why; it spells 'uncomfortable'. when you know you're being watched ; you ask, "what's up? where did i go wrong?" when you're being blame for something you dont do; you ask, "did it happen on its own? or was it me being a big fat elephant walking along the alley?"
and when the days are without support; those are the most difficult days (: well, it just boils down to ; destroying my self-esteem. never been through this, and never wanted to go through this. but i'm sure, there's 'hikmah' behind all this.
life have been perfect all this while. maybe i forgot what i went through before that. till it blinded my eyes to the reality i least expect, happening. its the reality that i forgot to remind myself of. but, i got to live with it. i told myself. its not human beings that i want to please. its Allah, and only Him. cos that is the only thing that matters most. for all the hardships i've went through, my motivation was only Him. and Thank YOU Allah for the strength. Thank YOU Allah for opening my eyes. protect me from all bad intentions, and may You forgive them for they dont have knowledge to it. Amin. may Allah make me realise about things through all the happenings, may He guide me always, and may He bless me with patience to go through these obstacles, insya-Allah, Amin. (: (: (: SubahanAllah. Alhamdulillah. AllahuAkbar ;) |
